A few days ago I received an anonymous comment on my blog. It broke my heart.
Ma'am, I want you to know that your struggles matter. I believe that we serve a God who camps out with us in the midst of our struggles and shields us with Himself when the storms rage roughly around us and we have no other cover. I hope that you know you are loved. I am sorry that you have experienced so many heartaches and that it has never worked out. I wish I could tell you why.
I can only offer my love and prayers as you endure a broken heart and believe,
as David Crowder sings so eloquently:
Where there is pain, Let there be grace
Where there is suffering, Bring serenity....
Where there is misery, Bring expectancy
Father, would you fill these hearts with expectancy? Comfort them and help them to rest under Your cover as the storms rage all around them and disappointment abounds. I praise You for being a God of hope, and I pray that you would use hope to rekindle their joy in serving You. I ask for a miracle child, Lord. I believe You can do anything and that nothing is too hard for You. Be near these brokenhearted ones and bring them strength and comfort. Rescue them because they are crushed in spirit. I ask all these things in the name of the One who rescues: Jesus.
Bloggerotsky, I ask that each of you who read this post and are believers in Christ would leave a prayer in the comments section if you are able. Let's bless this sister, wherever she may be. I know you won't let me down now, when she needs you the most.
I am so glad I found your blog. I hardly slept at all last night, partly because of what your talking about here. Hubs and I have been trying to adopt since the fall of 2004. 1st little girl was a friend of a friends and the mother was killed in a car accident. Long story there but the state took her from the home she was at in the middle of the night and we never saw her again. Second little girl is in Honduras. We found her through a church mission trip in Huntsville, AL. After months of paperwork and phone calls, we find out that the country wont allow us to PICK a child. At this point folks start to tell us about your ladies that can't keep their babies. We lost a baby girl in one of these situations in May 2008. Mother decided to try to parent as losing 2 older girls to the state...starting to see a pattern here. We been waiting for China for 3 years and they tell us it could be another 3. I see people everyday having kids that can't feed them and care for them. Families going to China that already have 3,4 or 5 kids in the home. I am totally broken hearted. Yes I pray. I don't even feel worthy of that sometimes. Like He shouldn't have to heard me grumble and cry anymore.
Oh well. Thanks for listening. I couldn't say that to anyone who knows me. I am the happy girl with the bright smile and try not to let anyone see me any other way. Put on your happy face kind of thing. Please pray with me for Gods will for my life especially for a baby. Thanks again.